The Tough Stuff.

Today on our walk we talked about end of life planning. What happens if Ben dies in Iraq? Or what if he is in a terrible accident and has to have full-time care? We have had these talks before, as Ben's job has always been dangerous, but this time, for the next year, it is real. We talked about passwords to accounts. We talked about setting up funds for the boys. We talked about funeral arrangements. We talked about how if he gets a flag, Chris (Ben's brother) wants it. What will  the boys and I do? Will we stay where we are or move closer to family? It was a lot of heavy stuff. But for me it was comforting knowing we have a plan. We ended the conversation by saying- statistically we will both be here in a year. And for that I am grateful. And now I can start planning the trip we are taking as a family during one of Ben's R&R's. And what car we are going to buy at the end of this tour.