My life is good. My life is great. My life is good. My life is great.

It’s Thursday. I’ve had a bit of a rough week. You know, the kind of days you don’t want to get out of bed and face life. But today is a better day.

1. I think I’m going to lose two toenails. Well, maybe I won’t lose them, but they are black. It makes me feel like I am a legit runner. I don’t always feel like a legit runner. I would say more of a jogger. I jog. I’m not fast. I jog on a treadmill. I don’t like being out in the cold. I like jogging outside in the spring and early morning summers, but other than that, I like a treadmill.

2. Did I tell you I’m starting to take classes to work towards my bachelors? One of the regrets in my life is not getting my bachelors degree. So, I am working towards it. Starting this summer. I am so excited to start. I just want to get it finished. I am only taking a few classes at a time, so that I won’t overdo it, but I am taking one foot in front of another. The only thing I’m nervous about is a Statistics class I have to take. Ugh. One foot in front of another.

3. You know what makes Thursday even better? Making it a pizza night.

4. I went and had a root canal redone, but it was so infected, they weren’t able to fix it. So I have to go back next week. I’m glad it isn’t worst case scenario, which included an implant and thousands of dollars so that’s awesome.

5. Although it makes me happy to have warmer weather forecasted for the next little while, I am seriously disappointed with the lack of snow days this year. It’s a shame we have a lo of snow days built in, and we have only used one. Boo.

I hope you all had a good Thursday. Today was a good day for me.

Love you. Mean it.

When life hands you a rainbow sweater, you wear it with red lipstick.

It’s Thursday night at 7:00. I’m tired and ready for bed. It’s been a long week. Kind of emotional, kind of awesome, and kind of rough.

1. Most importantly-Ben is coming home this weekend. So that is very exciting.
2. Due to everything that is happening in the world right now, Ben’s leave has been canceled. Which means, I can no longer go run my race at Disney World. I will have to find another race to run. I am disappointed, but its going to be alright.
3. I have to have a root canal redone tomorrow. I’m not excited about it. If it works, I will be extremely happy. If not, I will have to spend thousands to fix it. So lets hope tomorrow is successful.
4. I have one more week of my month of no social media.
5. I think I only have four. I think I am done. I am ready for bed. I am ready for Ben to be home.

I hope that everybody has had a great day.

Love you. Mean it.

We are halfway through the month.

It’s Thursday. Life has been moving quickly over here. We are halfway through my break from Social Media. How is it going for you? Any difference? I’ve noticed a few things, but nothing life shattering.

1. Two weeks ago when things were uncertain about Ben and what was going to happen, I watched an episode of Jack Ryan, in which Jack Ryan and his team were set up and there was a roadside bomb, and a sniper- it was a huge mistake. I was convinced that Ben was going to be attacked and it was a mess in my head. Note to self. Do not watch ANYTHING like Jack Ryan when your husband is in a dangerous situation. Don’t worry. I watched an episode of Schitt’s Creek to take my mind off of it. Speaking of Ben, he is doing fine. He is safe and happy. We are not sure when he will be home yet, but that’s fine with me. I’m totally fine with the uncertainty of when he is coming home. It is the uncertainty of whether he is in danger that I have the hard time with.
2. I went to the dentist. Actually, Thomas and I went to the dentist. And Thomas came away with NO cavities! And for a kid that doesn’t love brushing his teeth, it was amazing. I wasn’t worried going in, but I might have to have a root canal redone and major work done. Boo. It all depends on what the damage is, but of course they won’t know that until they go in to find out. So it could be a simple procedure, or it could be several thousand dollars. UGH.
3. I went for a long run on Saturday only to have to stop 30 minutes in because my calf was throbbing, and I could barely walk. It was so discouraging. My race is in 5 weeks, so until the race I am taking it easy, and only running. I am going to attempt the long run again on Saturday. This run is long enough, that if I can finish it, I feel confident that I can run the entire half marathon. Wish me luck.
4. I’ve been journaling. Have you ever tried it? It has been incredibly therapeutic for me, and has helped me a lot. I have googled “Journal Prompts for improving body image” and “journal prompts for a more intentional life” and so far so good. My friend also suggested gratitude prompts. I love it.
5. I’m wearing my llama tights today. That brings me joy.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday.

Love you. Mean it.

Thursday.

It’s Thursday. Yesterday we had a snow day. This morning I slept in. So yes. I am having a good day.

1. I’m listening to Brene Brown’s book- Braving the Wilderness. It is an incredible book, and I recommend reading/listening to it. Really. I’ve listened to it a few times, but my favorites are- is hard to hate close up and “true belonging doesn’t require you to change who you are,; it requires you to be who you are.” So many good things to learn.
2. I would like to say thank you to all of the people who reached out to me this week. It was a really hard week. Ben was in a place that had potential to be dangerous, with the possibility of doing all sorts of dangerous things if needed. It was a challenge. But thank you for being there for me. For those interested, it looks like things have significantly calmed down. So that is good. He will probably be gone for a few more weeks, but I am totally okay with that.
3. We had our first snow day this week, and it was absolutely amazing. I know that not all of my friends appreciate snow days, but I totally do. They are kind of the best thing about winter.
4. Since I started posting on the blog again, I decided to go through the old blog and look at what used to be my life. It was interesting. I realized that I have always been hard on my body and it’s ridiculous. I also realize that I brag a lot. Not as much as some, but certainly I am guilty of putting the “best of” out there for people to see. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve also put the “real” me out there too, and have been really open about some of my struggles. But even I am not perfect. Also, there were times that I thought I was being brave about posting certain things, and it now seems ridiculous.
5. And Since hardly anyone is going to read this, I want to tell you that I have been watching a show that swears a lot and is probably inappropriate for someone who is not supposed to watch rated R movies. It’s Schitt’s Creek. I die laughing every time I watch it.

I hope that everyone is having a good week.

Love you. Mean it.

The first Thursday of the rest of your life.

Does anyone feel a little deflated after Christmas? Like everything was leading up to this moment and now all that is left is a pile of fake tree needles. It’s really not that depressing, but I do love turning on the Christmas tree lights. It’s pretty. Anyway. Happy Thursday.

1. So I might be taking a break from Facebook and Instagram, but I decided I love my Thursday posts, so I will post it to my blog. Maybe I’ll blog more, since I’ll have extra time on my hands. So check back regularly. It could be fun. 

2. Break is almost over. I love break, but I am looking forward to the routine of work and school. Now that Christmas is over, winter is almost over too, right? Just kidding. I wish it were. I was just in my basement and saw my beach chair, and it made me excited for summer.

3. 2020 big deal? Or just another year? I don’t know. I’m pretty sure it will have its good and bad, but I’m hoping for a pretty good year. Let’s do it together though, and it will be amazing.

4. I went to my therapist the other day, and I have to say she almost convinced me that I don’t like myself. You guys. I left thinking that I have confidence issues. Y’all- nah. I don’t. I started journaling as if I had confidence issues, and a few seconds in I was like “girl, you’re awesome, and have a lot to offer”. I don’t have perfect confidence in everything, but most everything, I feel pretty good about myself. I just don’t like the way my body looks sometimes. There is a big difference. I fully believe you can have confidence in some things, and need to work on others. Own it. You are incredible. Just ask me, I’ll tell you why you are awesome. 

5. Two things happen when Ben is out of town. The first is the house isn’t as clean. And the second is I don’t sleep as well. I’ve been working on the cleaning thing, as I have decided I would like to have a house that is clean enough that fresh flowers on the table does not look out of place. The sleep thing is a little harder as my kids don’t want to go to bed at 7:30. So for the next little while I will try to figure it out, but I might be doing life tired. And that’s okay. 

Anyway. I hope that everyone has an amazing Thursday, and that you are happy. 

Just so you know, I might not be on social media, but I am still around and can message in a great number of ways.

Love you. Mean it.